Monday, March 13, 2006

Want

It's a rat race this life is and so much information and so much to comprehend and so much to grasp with so little time and we're running, always running and you say what's relevant what's authentic but what do they mean what's fashionable-what tastes sickly sweet what's hip cool and slicked out of it's mind that glossy coating of all we hold dear we have information but haven't the minds to dissect it and we have news shows and podcasts and billboards all telling us what's true and so many books all disagree but all supposed to help us understand and televisions as our feeding troughs ensuring informational obesity preventing us from getting up from our plush couches and promising nothing but lies and disclosing all but what's important to a dead world but in complexity whats uncomplicated is needed and I want a simple humanity a simple philosophy a simple moral standard ethical code want what's true what's right what's good...

and

I

just

want

to

breath.

4 comments:

kate said...

it seems like your in 'the fog'...

what is it about that race that sucks me in..quite often. the chaos, the longing for more, the hurry of life, the restlessness, the reaching and grabbing, ever remembering to move but always forgetting to pause and breathe, the self centered indulgence? still leaving me dripping of want, want of peace and rest and quietness and stillness and satisfaction and simplicity. the overstimulation of life sucks but silence isn't always enjoyable either.

i don't think there is such a thing as simple humanity, we are a complex system of thought and emotion and feeling and spirit and body and soul and all this together makes life a little unruly and difficult, and even if there was a simple humanity i'm not sure how satisfying it would be to you nathan. the weight of questions and pangings of disatisfaction should not cause you to settle, but a breath of fresh air is always refreshing for the journey

.n. said...

I do believe what I really want is to slow down. To prioritize. To answer the questions of what's really important?

To me a simplified humanity is existing in the right understanding of what's important and what isn't. Releasing what doesn't matter and holding onto what does.

I'm reminded of your recent longings for simplicity Kate. I'm also reminded that I pretty much told you the same thing.

What it boils down to for me is fitting a complex world into a simple framework. Maybe then everything won't get tangled up.

kate said...

hmm..yes, it's interesting that we can see for others what we can't see for ourselves.

i think there is a longing for an inner stillness and peace and quietness and rest that is far beyond outward expressions of buisiness and chaos and hyperactivity. to (this probably sounds weird, maybe 'new ageish') exist within this reality of life but above it somehow. i say 'new age' but it's not at all actually. it's completely what christ demonstrates for us really, and it's pretty radical from the world today (or in any day). that's part (of a whole lot of other things i'm rediscovering) of what draws me to Him, it is a drastically different lifestyle and state of mind, and i think that is where your answer lies...within His life. (insert cliche comment of Jesus is the answer :) ) the 'simple answer' is a lot more radical than what i've ever thought, not complex...just radical.

.n. said...

That's a good question Ricardo. I struggle with this often.

I wonder if it has something to do with what we're a product of. We're all products of something right? We're empty and we have to be filled with something and that something is what produces the end result-if I can use such limiting and prohibitive terms. So if we're a product of something higher than this world, maybe influenced primarily by the divine and everything else is just an add-on or degrees of necessity, such as clothing, food, material possessions or even the way things look in our worship gatherings then maybe we have succeeded in being in the world but not of it.

I see so many Christians who are a product of fashion or contemporary philosophy or the irrelevant and illusive hallucinations of this existence that one might call important. Even weighty theology and the fine points of the church can become worldly side tracks leading from the purest of directions.

I wonder how far I have wondered down the wrong paths.

You're right though. That is a huge question. Those are just some thoughts on a much larger discussion.