I have a friend who's mom is expected to die any day. She has cancer in her sinuses.
I told her I would pray for her.
One of the biggest things that I struggled with when mom passed away was understanding what prayer really does. I still don't know. I don't struggle with whether God can heal or perform miracles. I know He can and does. My biggest struggle is knowing whether He will. Basically this, I felt, undermined my faith. It became really hard for me to pray about anything. I felt like God would do whatever He was already planning on doing. I've never really understood prayer and it's effects on a omniscient, omnipotent God.
I questioned whether, if I had prayed harder or longer or more passionately, maybe mom would still be here today. Just maybe that whisper of a wind would move something big and powerful and the future would be altered forever.
Today I struggle with praying for my friend...I don't know if it will help.
A life is held in a teetering and precious balance and my ability to effectively pray for her has been shot to hell.
3 comments:
I get what your saying. But prayer is powerful, and though God will do HIs will regardless, He still hears and answers us, even if it's not how we wanted. Besides, it's comforting to know that you are being prayed for, weather or not you think it helps
Hey I was reading in Spiritual Ladership an came across this, thought it was somewhat fitting for htis topic..."The Intellectual problems associated with prayer are me tin the joy of answered prayer and the closer fellowship with God."
I have a feeling if I read that while I was feeling the way I was feeling it wouldn't have really mattered.
Sometimes we need to let people feel what they feel and not give them canned answers.
Not all problems require solutions jj.
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